caroworld

I'm depressed but I don't know why. Work is over.

I read Jen's blog. Not that that's depressed me, although she sees a TON of concerts.

Let me think...

I don't know why I feel glum. I really don't. It feels like something's wrong, oh, I think I know now...

My health insurance woes. I have sucky health insurance I buy for myself, then I stupidly thought my company could pay for it and everyone would save money instead of taking the company's health insurance which I thought would cost me a little more in employee paid premiums. But I realized (as in Chad told me) if I get sick my insurance sucks and it will be very expensive for me. So I've never used this insurance once, not in the 2+ or 3 years since I've had it, and suddenly I'm worried about what if I get sick? What if something happens?

I guess I'll talk it over with my mom tonight, but it won't be that informed a conversation on my end cuz I gave Chad all my plan details so he could look it over tonight also. He'll let me know tomorrow if he wants to pay it or how he wants to pay, etc. He's seem to be into it because it would save him a lot of $$. But now I'm thinking I'm going to have to go back to Chad, ask him please forget my stupid idea, I'm suddenly worried about getting sick, and I'll pay, dammit, I'll pay, just give me your Kaiser. Poor Chad. He's a nice guy, but he'd be happier if all along he'd been in the dark about my plan and its cheaper premiums.

I'll think it over more, but I think I'll take Kaiser. Then I'll feel better and not worry and won't be depressed.