ok lisa

you can take the blame!

and phi! you're back.

my offer is still open for providing pink crash pad for tired folks after bonfire night/marshmallow toast.

i wonder if they have vegetarian marshmallows. maybe if i just don't think about what they're made of.

i'm a very, very bad vegetarian.

anyway, guess who i "bumped" into last night.

yeah, yeah, yeah.

f*ckin' stalker.

so we ended up hanging out but that was mostly because i was lonely and feeling ..what.. generous? although i made VERY, VERY, VERY clear to him that we will NEVER date again. i'm not even sure we'll ever even hang out again. i know this is going to sound like i'm just a total asshole,...no, wait a minute, he's the total asshole, but anyways, it was like having a person, a warm body, to accompany me to bars, etc. because sometimes i am just too chicken to go in by my lonesome. so i made full use of his presense and we hit a couple places.

so anyways, we went to a karioki place called the Mint and they have SO many songs. It's on Market and we should all go there sometime, it's a bar but not a private room like you scaredy cats like but don't worry you can really suck (like i did) and no one cares, they're all really supportive and clapping etc. there were some really good singers there too. so that was fun. i sang a john lennon song. they also had coupons for $1 newcastle so i went ahead.. not bad. i'm not big on beer. frankly, it tastes like bad breath most of the time. but this one was pretty good. i just never end up drinking much.

then i was hungry so we went to the Video Cafe which is on Geary and open 24 hours (it was really late by then) and they play movies on big screens there. they were playing Meet the Fockers... it was ok.. kinda dated now. i had yummy pancakes, i ate both - big ones too, like i said, i was hungry. stu hardly ate as his constant state seems to be "distress." i'm sorry, it's mean of me to make fun of him, i just can't help it sometimes. anyway, it should be CLEAR AS FRICKEN GOLD to him now that he has to GET OVER ME but i'll be friendly just probably will not be hanging out much. ..or at all. i still get pissed when i think back.. anyway.

i also ended up getting a cute hooded sweater for only $11. but i got there too late, everything was closing so i didn't have much time to shop. not that i was really looking for much. what i actually need - jeans, pants, skirts, bottom stuff. anyway. anyway...anyway! word of the day.

i think tonight i'll take it easy and not broadcast my whereabouts. i will enjoy the solitude of my own company and try to do something productive and fun. like maybe draw something. that would be fun.

i better make sure there's no rehearsal....

until we read again,