Insomnia

I had insomnia last night. I came home from improv late and ate McDonald's. (Bad idea. That is what I blame the insomnia on.) I then read my As Good As It Gets script. Then I got ready for bed. I bathed, brushed my teeth. I'm not sure what time it was, but everyone else was asleep (which means late because my mom stays up late.) So then I lay in bed. It was ridiculous, I couldn't sleep. I had all this energy and this desire to move around. And I kept thinking of all these things I wanted to do but don't have the time to. So then I got up and wrote a bunch of long lists of all the things I want to do and all the things I have to do and all the things I've been meaning to do. Things I would do if money were not a problem and my time was all my own. Then I grouped the lists by categories -- i.e. healthy actions, financial actions, household actions, fun actions, life-learning actions, current projects, etc, etc, etc. So then I tried to schedule it into my life. Some of them, at least. That was very hard because although I couldn't sleep, I felt very tired. It all seemed so complicated. There were too many. Then I got the idea to pay off my car as quickly as possible. I went on this mad check writing campaign and wrote 15 checks (it will take 15 weeks) to my parents. I dated them (used a calender) and arranged them so all I have to do is deposit my paycheck and then hand my parents a pre-written personal check. In the mean time, I will be TOTALLY BROKE and must live on my savings, some of which are already devoted to pay off, oh, the DVD, TV, violin, $32 BART ticket, 2nd portion of my acting class, monthly dues for my improv troupe, and gas which is outrageous as anyone within a mile of California can tell you.

I went to bed around 4 or 5 AM, maybe 6, yes, I think 6 AM. And somehow I got up at 7:20 AM, time enough for me to get ready so I could walk to work in light of committing most of my gas money to paying off the car.

I'm also going to get out of my improv troupe, at least for May. I'm too busy in May anyways and that's 40 bucks I'll be saving.

There's still things that will come up, but I think I can do this. I just need to watch my money like a hawk.

Goodbye to all. Yes, Hairspray is out. I wonder if I'll see my friends tonight. I'm surprisingly okay. Not feeling especially groggy or horrible. But I bet I'll conk out early tonight.